Threaded tangled thoughts

cool, rainy nights

are perfect for those random, tangled-up thoughts

the rain falling down

lets loose a flood of feelings from an unknown place

are raindrops really tears from Heaven?

and if they are, to whom do they belong?

i stretch out my hand into the night

to receive cold little dots on my skin.

what does it feel like

to stand in the rain and cry

how do you know if the wetness on your face

is sadness from within or above... or both

it's awfully quiet when it rains

because the children and dogs don't come out to play.

no japanese kids exclaiming indecipherable things in their adorable voices

the pitter-patter of water droplets - the only sign of life.

it is a funny feeling to have

but somehow the world seems to have grown

because the big engulfing blackness of the night

can swallow a tiny being like me

the night is friendlier than the day sometimes

because it has a cover i can hide under and be a part of

when reality and all its jabbing toothpicks come flying

i simply crawl under the blanket and disappear

rainy nights are good nights for thinking.

because you never know what you might find.

"Running, running as fast as I can. Do you think we'll make it, do you think we'll make it? We're running, keep holding my hand. So we don't get separated." -No Doubt, Running

Miracles happen- we crossed the finish line in under 2 hours ("mircale" is also a subjective term here but fully validated in this case since we haven't ran for anything except the bus in the last 2 years). AND. AND. AND. I'll do the 10K again. i want to. i no longer hate running. yeah. you heard me (or read, rather). running with a friend definitely makes completing the race much more attainable...and fun! so thank you terri :D (grace, i wish you were there too!)

over 10,000 women were there and there was a mom who brought her son to run with her too. despite the aching pains that imepede our motion somewhat (especially walking DOWN THE STAIRS. killer.) its a good kinda ache. each step in pain is a step in gain. i know terri is probably sick of hearing me say this but i'll say it again and again until i believe it- i can't believe we completed the 10K.

now i think i understand why people like running... there's a sense of exhilaration in knowing that your legs carry you forward. it's active, it's alive, it's the joy in knowing and being able to move. it's the revelation of a moment in time from the starting line leading to a momentum being built and before you know it, it's a major movement. running now makes me feel that every breath i take and heartbeat that happens is for something greater.

Service was..... too brilliant for words. my limited vocabulary of bombastic words won't do the description justice. so with very basic vocab- it left me speechless. i love Pastor Lia. dreams and visions don't come to pass until they become a reality inside of you first. if you dream about something, it is not going to happen because that is only hope. but if it has already happened IN you, then it is faith. it's just like being pregnant- you can't see the baby yet, but you know it's already inside of you.