quick updates (cos once again i am lazy):
1. my father's car is freaking difficult to drive. almost died. parking is a nightmare.
2. sze hui's party was REALLY good! love the apple crumble yum!
3. xuyun's party was awesome too. never thought i'd laugh so much. her house seems bigger.
4. i love this new skin.
5. i help my brother cut his hair and gave him a helmet head.
♥ 12:36 AM
I PASSED!!!
now that i'm never going to see that place ever again (i think.) i'm beginning to miss it. yeah, crazy. i know. during the warm-up, i wasn't nervous or anything but in the waiting room was when suddenly i can hear the BADUM-BADUM-BADUM damn loudly. so i did the only thing i could think of- i read my bible. Hebrews 10:35- Therefore do not cast away your confidence, that has great reward." thank GOD that He gave me a very non-intimidating instructor who picked a very smooth and easy route (test route 5) with no U-turns, no need to do agressive lane changing, practically nothing. thank you Grace for accompanying me to bbdc and giving the support, encouragement and help. your presence totally made all the difference. thank you Terri, though i wasn't operating a plane, i did fly like a bird in a metaphorical sense. thank you Shermaine for your sms which made me tell myself all the more that i must pass...and i did ((: ok... i still can't fully grasp the fact but the hype has more or less died down. now what?
♥ 10:12 PM
we knelt down during praise and worship today!
it was definitely a different feeling and somehow it goes one step beyond lifting up hands in ultimate surrender. it's been a long time since i felt God's presence and i'm just so glad i did today. i miss the swelling up of that undescribable emotion inside.
ushering is a truly understated ministry. yesterday i learnt just how much the rest of us didn't see and didn't know about the work, sweat, effort and sacrifices of people in the usher ministry. it's so behind-the-scenes that i wish everyone could be an usher at least once just to feel, experience and understand the tremendous effort behind the superficial appearance of things. i totally kow-tow them. ushering is a great way to lose weight since we will have to skip lunch most of the time and survive by popping mints every 30 mins. i learnt so much things- they seem trivial but in usher ministry, everything significant is a result or consequence of a seemingly trivial detail. i never knew arranging chairs required so much attention to details. i never appreciated how the offering envelopes and the other notices were placed in perfect alignment and uniformity on every single seat. i never saw all those things until i did them myself. and i never really experienced the reward of smiling at a stranger until i did it first.
Pastor Lia shared a very interesting insight... she said that God puts people together, that when you meet someone it's not by chance but by His plan and that when we meet someone we are actually looking for a piece of our destiny in them. so each and every person carries pieces of destinies of every single person he or she meets. so when we meet someone, we find a piece to add to the puzzle. at the end of the day when every piece has been collected, the completed picture is what God painted of our lives from the very beginning and He leads us there, person by person, encounter by encounter, experience by experience. it's kinda cool to know that i'm carrying a part of someone else's life in me. so is fate actually divine appointment? are coincidences instances when God chooses to remain anonymous?
♥ 11:40 PM
konNIchiwaaaaa~today's first jap lesson was..... a mixture of things. it was sort of slow and boring, but still quite taxing in a way since we're bombarded with 20 hiragana characters to learn and memorise by tomorrow. man i hope i remember everything. the lady tutor is 100% Japanese on the inside though she's a Chinese. the way she talks, walks, teaches, drinks from her thermoflask cup and laughs (not hearty in the least and very erm...what's the word... CONTROLLED. that's IT). everything about her screams prim, proper and polite. the class was so quiet the silence was...deafening. we had to laugh silently it was torturous. but i learnt a LOT of things and hopefully my brain is not too full to learn more. maybe the leftovers from exams have to be cleared first before the brain gets stuffed again. man does my brain need to shit or what. tsk so tempted to watch
ROOKIES now. oyasuminasai.
♥ 11:18 PM
